I canceled my plans for the summer, put my life on hold... Not knowing how my mothers illness would progress, yet knowing I needed to be with her, not racing around the world pursuing my crazy dreams.
To deal with this stressful time of uncertainty and pain, I sought an escape, something to remind me of the beautiful sides to life. Rather than climbing a normal part of my life, it became my release - the one thing which brought some clarity back into my life. I no longer climbed to achieve something, nor did I care what I climbed or whether I fell off... Purely enjoying movement and being in nature. This made me remember how much fun climbing can be. I drove to Nuremberg at least once every week, often balling my eyes out for the entire 3 hour drive and arriving at Cafe Kraft a wreck. However, pulling on my snug team 5.10's and plunging my hands deep into my chalk bag always brought me some comfort - a sense of familiarity in a world of new emotions, fear and sorrow... and after climbing for a few hours, life became bearable again. Cafe Kraft and the Frankenjura became my escape, my sanity, a little piece of the life I know and love...
Through this difficult time I was forced to discover a new place, one which had been on my backdoor step for a long time, but which I had never taken the time to explore. I discovered another home... a warm, welcoming community, a great place to train (Cafe Kraft) and an amazing amount of new routes to explore of every difficulty - The infamous Frankenjura, birth place of the red-point and hard sport climbing.
Thanks to Adidas I was given the amazing opportunity to meet and train with Patrick Matros and Dicki Korb, the authors of Gimme Kraft and trainer's of crusher Alex Megos. I feel lucky to be able to work with these two very experienced trainers - To learn and grow as a climber. This has been helping me restructure my life, both physically and mentally. I have been learning how to effectively train and make sure my body is function to its maximum capacity.
I did an overall fitness test, with Volker Schöffl and the DAV (German Alpine Club), which has given me amazing parameters to taylor my training specifically to my requirements and knowing that there are no issues with my health is great. I can give it 100% with no second thoughts...
Being forced to stop, having the foundations of my life ripped out from underneath me, has forced me to stop. To think and take the time to slowly rebuild my life in the way I want it. I feel like over the last month I have been pulling together the strings of my life which had come unravelled, addressing all the things which I had left ignored while flitting around the world, pursuing my dreams. It has been a sudden and brutal step into a part of the world I largely managed to ignore until now.
A step which has been testing my patience daily, yet teaching me a lot and forcing me to grow as a person. There really have been some very positive aspects. Many heartfelt thanks go out to everyone - Friends, family and sponsors, who have all been there for me through this extremely difficult time. You are all amazing and I feel lucky to have you as a part of my life!