Every time you kind of feel you have it sorted, life seems to have a crazy way of throwing something new into the mix - This is not necessarily a bad thing. However it tends to confuse matters at times and is making it hard for me to make decisions. My life just seems to be a whirlwind of experiences and too many great opportunities keep coming up... I feel very privileged to be in this position, yet at times I feel like I am having a hard time keeping up with my life.
The last few weeks have been hectic - bouldering, driving, Trade Show, visiting new areas, meeting great people and filming... After the Trade Show I made a very impromptu decision to head down to St. George (Southern Utah) with Sasha, Ben, Andy and Keith. This turned into a week of fun and crushing with the Five Ten crew! We sampled the crags around Southern Utah, went to hot springs and even managed to fit some canyoneering into our schedule! The Blasphemy wall at the VRG has amazing climbing, but I found the deafening roar of trucks which permanently echos around the george is hard to come to terms with at first. Soon I discovered that while climbing I was able to switch off to this though and I loved the brutally unforgiving style of climbing on this wall. For me the highlight of the trip was my ascent of Fall of Man 5.13b.
We were also lucky to get a couple of great days climbing at the Cathedral, because of the unseasonably warm winter. The silence up there was a welcome break from the VRG. It has been super fun, seeing new places, bouldering and doing routes quickly. However, I always find that after several weeks of this, I miss having a project which dominates my brain and takes over my life. I am finding once again that life starts feeling pointless and empty without having an overriding goal to focus on.
Lately, a concept that my ex-boyfriend often talked to me about keeps popping into my mind... "Just because you can do something, does not mean you should." This thought has made me really try to evaluate my life and what is really important to me before just committing to an opportunity. However, thinking in this way and my transient lifestyle has also made it difficult for me to fully commit to anything and I am feeling the need to really sink my teeth into a project again...
For now though, I am back in Bishop, for another couple weeks of bouldering. There are several proud lines which I am very inspired to attempt here, and a great group of friends that I am excited to have the chance to spend some more time with.